So far this semester has been a real roller coaster. First, I'm taking 15 units, 3 more units than the usual 12 units, which means, one more class than usual. I have so much reading to do everyday.
Second, the intership I'm working with is causing me a lot of worry. The main focus of the MODEL program is to pair each child with a Mentor and homework help. I intern on Tuesdays and Thursdays and getting the children to focus is very difficult. Most of the time I find myself sitting next to the child monitoring their homework which holds me back from going around and checking homework for everyone. Most of the kids don't have any motivation which is really sad since they are only in grade school. I even found out that a kid is going to be held back from the 4th grade.
Third, I still can't find a job anywhere. It's really demoralizing. I've applied to clothing stores, grocery stores, fast food restaurants, hotels, nanny jobs, sales jobs, spa jobs, pet stores, post offices, Personal Assistant jobs, even being an egg donor!! Sometimes I get so unhappy about it, I start to question my abilities. I just want to start saving money. It's so hard to hear that friends are doing this, or going there for the weekend and I can't do anything because I have no income.
Fourth, I've been feeling really empty lately. I still cannot fathom that Eunice is gone. I just can't wrap my mind around the idea. Sometimes I try not to think about it, and some days I can't stop thinking about it. Her birthday is coming up and it's going to be really hard for a lot of people that were close to her. Being hollow is such a unpleasant feeling.
xo angela